11 September 2009

Let's just say....it changed my life....


09/11/01
No, I didn't loose anyone....
not in a personal connection sense
but I lost me....
It is very difficult to describe exactly
where I was at the time...
but it all started with the phone call...
just like everyone else who received a phone call
that morning....
I was ironing....
laundry was piled up on the couch...
hanging from the doorways....
tumbling in the dryer...
swishing in the washer...
and lying on the floor...
It was a day much like today.
I was mesmerised by what I saw....
I sat down on the couch and just stared at the TV...
mouth hanging open for quite awhile..
and then I broke the stare...
jumped up and called my parents...
They hadn't even turned on their TV...
they had no idea...
soon my dad was saying quietly...
"It'll come down.."
I didn't know what he meant at first,
but he is a Civil Engineer, so I knew it was
a "structural comment".
He said
"they both will come down soon..."
I could not absorb the enormity of what
he was saying.
But there they were.....falling....
both of them.
As they day unfolded...
TV quietly murmuring in the background...
I started to receive calls...
iron some more...
make calls....
iron...
And then,
a small seed started to grow
inside of me...
The seed of freedom.
I was thinking about what it means to
be an American, and I thought about my life.
I had been miserable for months...
maybe years.
I needed some relief...
but didn't know how....
This day eight years ago started a journey for me...
a journey that has brought me to this place of happiness.
Happiness like I have never felt in my life.
Can one be happy, grateful...
and terribly sad....
all at the same time?

5 comments:

  1. What an interesting perspective on the day. I think I'll be mulling your post over for a while...

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  2. I agree with Kathy G. A very interesting view of the tragedy that day. Having good come from all that bad is life-affirming. Thank you for sharing this.

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  3. Thank you all...smiles....more..

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