17 December 2010

And the word was...

Authenticity...

"(in existentialist philosophy) relating to or denoting
 an emotionally appropriate, significant, purposive,
 and responsible mode of human life."

That is where I wanted to go this year, 2010.
I endeavored to place myself in a "mode"
of authenticity....

As I interpreted it,
it meant; to be 
who I really am,
without pretense...
false behavior,
or two-faced communication.

It was surprisingly easy....
to be me...
(no, I won't break out in song, promise)
but it had an unexpected consequence...

I started to become aware of the lack
of authenticity in the world around me.

It hurt.

I didn't like it at all....

and,
I found
that 
I have little tolerance for it, anymore.

I believe that we tolerate behavior
in order to 
"get by"...
and then we become immune to it.....
we fail to recognize it for what it is.....
we begin to think of it as the norm.

Sorry,
but that sucks.

I hope
that I never become immune to lack of authenticity again.
Even though, being acutely aware of it has 
some unintended consequences too...
it narrows your playing field,
your playmates become fewer,
and you may not even be able to tolerate your own family much,
but 
you 
may 
find
that you 
find 
serenity.....
smiles.


12 December 2010

I'm dreaming of....

well,
you can probably guess...

It simply does not happen here too often.
I have lived in the same city for most of my 53 years.
I can remember only one 
White Christmas.

So theses photos are from a snow that we had in January of 2010.
















Still
dreaming....
smiles