Still more layers....

Still pealing...

Well, there is one very interesting aspect of being in this process.....

As the layers pile up behind me, I am able to look at them with some perspective.

Not always, this is not a perfect process (or maybe,....it is).

But occasionally, I look back at a part of me that has undergone transformation,..... or I have outgrown,...... or I have simply discarded,..... and I can see it for what it really was.

Sometimes......

I find that it was only an old tool

that I used to get me through a rough patch,

or maybe it was learned behaviour from childhood,

or maybe it was just me being selfish.

Whatever it was, it doesn't suit me any longer,

and I must get rid of it.

If I don't, it will fester and irritate me.

I don't' dare forget the layer though,

for if I do.....

It will creep back into my repertoire,

I will use it, as it is familiar.....

and if not really careful, I will allow it to

become part of me again,

and the whole process will start over.

Growing up is so very hard to do....